Have you ever had so much mind "clutter," that you did something absentmindedly? Well, a few weeks ago, I accidentally took one of Dominic's Ritalin tablets!! I keep 3 out of the 4 medicines that I take for my heart "issues" on our kitchen counter as well as his bottle of Ritalin. I guess I was thinking about the new medicine the cardiologist just put me on and was also thinking it was time to give Dominic his third Ritalin dose of the day. After I realized what I had done, I hyperventilated a little kind of wondering what the reaction would be. He is on a small dose (5 mg), thank goodness, so I kind of sat back and waited to see what might happen. Luckily, there was no bad reaction, it actually kept me more focused for the next couple of hours than I had been all day. I sometimes wonder if I have ADHD :) I think when you're a mom/parent, your mind is always one step ahead thinking about what you have to do next. I'll never forget one time I was in a store and I was so much in my own thoughts, I almost rammed my cart into another lady. I said, "oh, I'm so sorry, I was in my own little world." She kind of laughed at me and said, "well, I hope you're very happy there!" I laughed and said back, "well, yes I am!" I had a good chuckle about that for the rest of the day :) Today, I locked myself out of my house. I beginning to really think my mind needs a good "decluttering!"
When Dominic was diagnosed with Autism at 2 1/2, I went to our local library and took out every book I could find about Autism. Sometimes I would bring back 20 books. This was 2006, so a lot of the information was very "dated." I guess I was looking for a book that would tell me what I should do next, like a "manual." Autism doesn't quite work that way! The saying is, " if you know one person with Autism, you know one person with Autism." Every mom to an individual with Autism follows their own "path." I think as moms, we judge ourselves much harder than anyone else does. I was 41 when I had Dominic. Did he get the diagnosis of Autism because I was an older mom? because I drank a lot of pop? I could sit and think about that every minute of every day. I am pretty integrated into the Autism community around Lansing and have told more than one person that it took me about two weeks to come to terms with Dominic's diagnosis. It is so incredib...
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